Oh, Wendy
*hugs* I honestly think you should just take a break from dating for awhile, clear your head and find who you are. You want love so bad, but you're looking in all the wrong places. Love isn't something that can be found as easily as like a kitten or a tv in a store. It takes time and rushing out with every guy that gives you a second look isn't helping you in any way.
I understand how you are feeling, I went with my ex because he gave me attention and I really just wanted a boyfriend. I feel that it was a mistake going out with him in the first place, seeing as his true colors appeared after we broke up. (yeah,
after -_- his true colors really showed up when I started spending time with Tommy (before Tommy and I actually started dating).)
Before I started dating Tommy, I had decided to be single for awhile, I would have to if it wasn't for the fact that Tommy was there for me and he was the only reason I was happy XD
Look, my point is, take a break. Clear your head and figure out what you want to do with your life. Focus on work. I know you want to find true love, but the thing about love is, it happens unexpectedly, it can't happen just because you wish it.
When you are meant to know who the one is, God will reveal him to you. But if you keep going out with guy after guy after guy, you may never find him.
Love is not something you can have at
your will, only
God knows when the time is right.
Don't settle for a guy just because you think you can't do better. You'll
know when you can't do better and, Wendy? You
can do better.