{ OOC: This takes place after the Villain has taken Ariel away from Sinbad. Sinbad is all alone in room 8. But before he is roomed with Anastasia. The italic is Sinbad’s thoughts. The black one is ‘himself’ and the red one is his ‘brother’.}
Sinbad woke up.
"Not again," he said to himself before he went to the bathroom. He splashed some cold water in his face. Then he just stared at the pouring water for some time.
What's wrong?
Leave me alone.
You had one of those dreams again, didn't you? About Meg.
...
What's the matter?
I shouldn't dream about her. Not when I have Ariel.
You dreamt about her when you had Cinderella. What's the difference?
There's a huge difference.
Why?
Well, because I... like Ariel.
But you like Meg as well.
It's not the same.
But it's the truth.
No, it's not. Meg is the past.
Or so you say.
She is. I want her to be.
So why is she still in your dreams?
I can't control that.
If there is nothing you can do about it, then why do you care about it?
It's not fair.... to Ariel.
She's just a girl you fucked.
No, she's not.
She doesn't matter. As long as she pleases you, everything is alright.
No, it's not.
You don't care about anyone but yourself.
That's not true.
You will never love another person.
SHUT UP.
...
That's all your fault.
So now you are blaming me for your own defects.
If it wasn't for you....
... you'd still believe in love?
...
When will you stop lying to yourself?
What do you mean?
I said I loved you.
You lied to me.
That's what you believe. But it's only because you couldn't handle it. You couldn't handle that I could forgive you, when you couldn't forgive yourself.
...
But that was such a long time ago. And a part of you always knew you were just pretending. That I didn't really hate you. That I actually loved you. Just as I said I did.
If that's true...
Yes?
Then why are you always so mean to me now?
I'm not real. I'm not your brother. I'm just your imagination. I'm a part of you.
I know that.
I have only hated you, because you wanted me to.
But I don't want to be hated.
Then let me love you.
What exactly do you mean by love?
You know that just as well as I. I like you. I care about you. I want to be with you forever. That is, however, only as a brother.
Yeah, I remember you once told me that. And I loved you too.
Loved? Don’t you love me anymore?
Uhm… Do you really think that I…. love Ariel.
What do you think?
I’m not sure. But then wouldn’t it mean that I also love….
… Meg?
Yeah…
Maybe it would. Is that a problem?
I don’t know. Am I allowed to love them both?
Have you ever cared about what you were allowed to do?
I get your point. But I’m still not sure if I really do love them. I mean, it’s just your opinion. And that means it’s my own opinion.
Then get someone else’s opinion.
Yeah, maybe I will. But I’m alone right now. So that’ll have to wait....
{OOC: I just wrote this to let you know some of the thoughts that's been in Sinbad's head, but that I never let out during the RP. }